Sometimes when I’m going through a lot, I need to write things down. I decided to share with you the few journal entries I made while on my Hawaiian journey.
January 9th, 2020
Right now, I am currently in my bunkbed at a hotel in Kona. It has been a long and emotionally draining day. I had Kimi, Maggi and Mary over last night to ease my anxieties about the trip. Kimi is so stinking’ sweet! She helped me fold everything properly and helped me decide what to bring and what to keep at home.
I called a lyft and left my house at 5:45 AM. I cried leaving Ruby Toots. She is my everything. I know that is so cheesy but like… this hoe is my home-girl. I’m tearing up right now just thinking about her. She eases my anxieties with her sweet little nose boops.
Anyways... I do love traveling and the buzz of airports. However, the past couple of times have been So melancholy and I think it's because I'm without Ruby. Anyways, I left Austin and flew to DFW. The flight was slightly delayed and so I barely had enough time to grab a sandwich to go before my flight to Kona. Side note: I rock at airports. I am always one of the few that is actually prepared at the TSA check. Also, I got my second bad checked for free and got moved to a window seat.
The guy I sat next to on the plane was super sweet. But he kept asking to share an Uber and go get drinks once we landed. It could have been totally innocent, but I've seen enough dateline to know not to go there.
When I arrived, I felt the sense of, “OMG am I really here?” Not going to lie, I cried because of the excitement and anxiety. My anxiety has been through the fucking roof lately. This trip will definitely help me get away from the buzz of the city. And hopefully fully reconnect myself with nature and reacquaintance myself with stepping outside of my comfort zone. It has been a long time since I took a trip like this.
I got to the hostel and washed my face just to feel somewhat refreshed after a long day of travel period I brought food with me to make because I'm broke AF. One of the girls who joined the hiking trip is staying at the same hostel, so I walked with her to get some food and we had a lovely conversation. I ended up crying twice. I'm so embarrassed but honestly, I needed a good cry.
I watched the sunset with this older woman from California named Kristen. It was so lovely and peaceful. This trip will definitely be a life changing experience. I'm so thankful for my parents who helped me get where I need to be.
January 10th, 2020
Good morning! I had the most wonderful and peaceful sleep last night. I woke up around 7:00 AM feeling amazing. One of my bunkmates was this lovely woman named Joanne. She lives in Victoria Canada! I was so shocked, and we instantly connected because of my family's presence in Victoria Canada. She has such a calming presence about her.
right now, I am sitting in a really comfy chair at the entrance to the hostel I tried to take a cute selfie, but my face just isn't cooperating right now lol.
January 11th, 2020
yesterday was fun Susie olive I went swimming in a lagoon and wow! I loved every second period the ocean wasn't terrifying to me. I saw little Nemo fishies and found a few sea urchins and a sea snake. The ocean felt absolutely amazing.
We met up with the rest of the group around 5:00 PM and drove about an hour and a half. We stayed at a hostel in Hilo called Arnott's lodge. It was so lovely. It poured all night, but I was cozy and safe in my tent. Not gonna lie, the rain here is no f*****g joke. It has rained literally all day I feel really annoyed because everything is so wet, and I hate it. But unfortunately, there is nothing I can do. We are all in this together. All I hope for is everyone to be super safe.
Today I woke up at 5:00 AM and took a hot shower while watching the rain pour it was really lovely and serene.
January 14th, 2020
OK so I haven't taken the time I wanted to and sit down and write. Every day has been absolutely exhausting but totally worth it. Mentally, the first part of the trip made me want to cry. Rain is this super huge bummer when all you do is hike. We drove to volcano National Park and set up our campsite right outside of it in a really cool area.
Pulling in, the smell of eucalyptus hits you instantly. We camped under beautiful eucalyptus trees but unfortunately it was on-and-off pouring all day (again). After setting up camp we went into the park and did a few different hiking trails. We went to crater rim and walked inside an actual huge crater . Besides being absolutely soaked from head to toe it was really cool to see the steam and sulfur fields.
The day took a Huge toll on me emotionally and physically. Being soaked like that all day to come back to a damp sleeping bag isn't fun. On top of that, it was windy and freezing. Morale was very low in the group for sure. I was lowkey hoping Andrew and Lexie would decide to cancel our next big hike for the next day, but we decided to not skip out.
We woke up early, divided the food in tent weight amongst ourselves and headed out to our big big hike. Holy s**t it was hard. My shoulders and neck were killing me on top of my insane. Cramps. About 1/4 into the 9.5-mile hike down this volcano comma the soles on both of my shoes ripped off completely. I honestly couldn't believe it. I decided that now I can do absolutely everything I set my mind to. I mean… I knew that before , but now hiking 9 1/2 miles down a volcano on my period in the pouring rain with both soles ripped off my hiking boots and with a 50-pound hiking backpack on my back… holy s**t I am so strong. It was insane because as soon as we got to camp comma the rain stopped.
The campsite we stayed out was insane!! it was a completely secluded Cove (because you have to hide down a f*****g volcano to get there). it was like something out of a movie. We hung out for a day exploring more coves cracking open coconuts playing in the sand etc. etc. . The water was crystal clear. You could see right through the water and touch beautiful coral and fish swam between my legs it was magical.